Embarrassing!

This week is EMBARRASING. That’s what I can picture myself this week. The personality guessing activity was fun, but it was embarrassing at the same time. Why do I say so you say? It was all because of the personality quiz that Ms Pei Li gave us.

The activity was like this, we were given some questions. And then, from that we can get our exact coordinate in the graph given, and apparently I got into the ‘dove’ group. Dove’s personalities are quite weak, and we can really relate that to our group’s guts. It was still pictured clearly on my mind, Pei Li asked Group A2 to come out on to the stage and nobody goes out. It was the most embarrassing moment in my time here in HELP University College.

What we can see here actually is the personality that I and my group members shouldn’t have. We’re not willing to take a challenge and this is obviously makes us seems so weak in mind strength.

I don’t know how to cope with this in my future. I am willing to learn more in this course, because I realize that I cannot be like this forever as it will affect me during my career life.

After the class, I feel like a LOSER because it really shows that I had no guts to dare myself and dare my mind to be challenged. I am guessing some of my friends do have the

same feeling as I am, but I had to realize that I am in a university now. And university is

different than high school.

I had to start building myself in the matter of throwing away my shyness. Other than that, adapting myself as well as to be open-minded and dare to be challenged. My expectation to be somewhat mature in the university has not been achieve yet, so starting from now on I had to learn the way to improve myself.

If I don’t do this from now on. I am sure that in the future, I’d be like a person who is so IMMATURE and the shyness would prevent me from doing something that’s out of my expectation. I come out from the lecture hall with a feeling of embarrassed and I would try not to get that feeling ever again.

But, how do I do that? It’s just a matter of time. I’ll learn how to improve myself by watching my other friends who have different attitude as mine. From there, I will surely know which part of my attitude should be changed and fixed.

I had to give a round of applause to Pei Li as she really showed us of who we are. I am sure in almost 4 weeks we’ve been together, there are so many things that we (students) have discovered about ourselves. Weakness, abilities, and so on through this course. This really means so much to me and my friend’s future. Thanks a lot Pei Li!

Best Regards,

Indra M.

Reflective Journal (week 1)

It is the day where I had to attend my first class at HELP University College. It was the day Muslims start to fast, so after having an early breakfast I went and get ready. Unfortunately, I was still an hour late. Maybe this is because I just started to learn how to take public transportation. I may just take a cab, it’s a whole lot easier. But I don’t want to spend much of my money on a cab, I’m afraid that it would be my habit to use a taxi as my routine transportation, just imagine how much money I’ll waste.

The first class that’s held today was PSY110, Career Guidance class. The lecturer, namely Ms. Yeo Pei Li is a nice and bubbly person. She has asked us to call her Pei Li. Well, apparently I found it a little bit awkward as I never called any of my teacher as their own name before. But yeah, I have to deal with it. WELCOME TO UNIVERSITY!

Lecture today reminds me of my parents, especially my mom. She really wants me to get into ‘that medical stuff’ She even tried to ask my uncle to persuade me to apply for medical course. Yes, I do tried and most of them responded positively but somehow, somewhere in my mind I know that I’m not that good enough to be in this field. My first option is actually to be where my brother is, taking a course in Law and then comes Psychology.

And when I think it all over again, at least I should give some variety in career. I knew that my mum would be disappointed in what I was planning to take. But she managed to get things over well.

When I start my study at HELP University, I knew that Psychology is the one for me. Hence, when I participate in Pei Li’s class, Career Guidance really opens my mind, I don’t see PSY110 as some sort of guidance on choosing a career. I look at it as more of a ‘spirit-lifter’, it gains our love for our own passion. It gains my love for Psychology and I should thank Ms. Pei Li for that.

My expectation towards the courser that I am taking now is just simple. It gives me money so that I can pay back my loan, as well as pay back all the money that I spent which came from my parents’ hardwork(SERIOUSLY!). I know it’s a little bit cliché` but what can I do, a son got to do what a son got to do,right?.

Best Regards,

Indra

Reflective Journal (week 2)

I was leaning back on the couch in the auditorium watching and listening to Ms. Pei Li’s speech. Today I managed to get in to class on-time. Maybe early than my other friends.

Pei Li drove her class pretty laidback today. I’m sure most of us have a lot to say in their journal about what were we doing during today’s lecture in Pei Li’s class.

But what catches my attention most was the journal recital by one of my classmate, namely Jeevi. She catches everyone’s attention that the class became so much quiet. She talks about how her parents really wanted her to be in medical field. Her story brought me back (AGAIN!) back to mine, back in time where my parents and even my brother urged me to get into medical.

I nod to what my parents said, yet I still apply for what my interest is begging for, which is Psychology. I know that the demand for medical graduates are very high nowadays, but still I chose to be in Psychology. Why? Because I see the future for this course. I knew if I managed to get my passion, and hard work come together, I’m sure that someday, somewhere I will be somebody.

I know that it is not easy to reach where I want to be, yet it is NOT impossible either. I just need some hard work, as well as focus. I opted to be in Psychological area, so I should know what am I supposed to be. Lists of people have proved that they did it, so I’m sure my hard work will pay me well enough and wouldn’t let me down if I plan everything wisely.

We did an activity today, we were divided into groups. From the handout we were given, we were asked to do some tests and from that test we know which group we were in. So, I picked out a group called Group 2(I), the ‘Investigative’ group.

I don’t really consider myself as an investigative kind of person, but apparently when I gave it a second thought, I actually do like working in a scientific setting. As I love solving puzzles and codes, it makes me feel more interested in getting into the ‘I’ group (workshop). This is because, what is necessary for ones to be in the ‘Investigative’ is like to learn, observe, investigative, analyze or solve problems. I chose to be a Health Psychologist.

I choose to be Health Psychologist because it combines two disciplines. One, it consists the knowledge of medical as I am into medical as well, and the second one is the

study of human behavior. Another career that’s on my list are Neuropsychologist, Clinical Psychologist and a regular Psychologist. These career’s needs are the same, combination between medical knowledge as well as the study of human behavior.

As I think deeply, my goal has became more obvious. My career goal is getting clearer and that makes my spirit on reaching out my goal has increased. I should thank to this subject especially to the lecturer Ms. Yeo Pei Li for opening my eyes wider on my future.

Best Regards,
Indra